08.25.2008
It has been 6 months today that I lost a dear friend and boss, Steve Brown.
It has gotten easier to get through the days but not better. I still miss him terribly when someone at work annoys me, when there is a problem with the building, when I work on anything MT or WY Subway related, when someone does something funny, stupid, or worthy of being teased. I miss him when people ask repeatedly if they can have a better parking spot, if they can hang their wolf sound/light huge picture in their office, when we hire someone new and I don't get to hear his honest unedited opinion of them, his sound effects, his shared love of the U of U. I miss not laughing as much, people not caring as much, I really just miss my friend Steve.
I am lucky to know and that I will get to see him again. That our friendship is not over and that I will get to hear him tell funny stories like cat scratch fever, toilet papering, and the muffin man and laugh hysterically. I am happy to know that his family is a forever family! I am happy for the pain because it reminds me how he was, how I wish I was and how I want to be.
Thanks to Steve I take myself a little less seriously, try and do a better job even if I don't want to and have faith that one day things will not be the same but that they will be better.
Miss you Steve! (even though you would think this was lame to make such a fuss!)
